Date : Tuesday, November 24
Time : 11:36 PM
Title : Moodless, speechless life.

you're my sweet torment,
Pls do not come any closer to me.
I'm at the edge of falling off soon. Please.
Let me leave quietly if you love me.



Life has been hectic, all i can say is i love my friends. alot alot.
They are the ones who bring me joys and enjoyment now.
The emo freaks...


It was the masterpiece today during the masschat session.
Everyone was drawing here and there. ttly lovelove



Sometimes its just what i want that hurts me the most.

Time flies, things gotten deeper.
I'm afraid, i want to back off now.
Please stop ur affection and love, i'm afraid. Very afraid now.

Date : Friday, November 20
Time : 1:57 AM
Title : Just a piece of my mind now.............

Date : Thursday, November 19
Time : 1:10 PM
Title : I'm a insecure & confused bitch. ^^

Sometimes, deep down i want things.
But when its right in front of me for me to grab, i dont want it anymore.
I'm afraid of it more than anything in the world.
Why is it here? What does it want from me? Motive? Truth?
I'm confused.
I'm such an insecure bitch



A beauty at sleep, dreaming about her prince riding on the white horse which never came.
She can't help but always dream.
But whenever she wakes up from her dream, its always heartache.
Nothing real, everything so fake.
What's in front she can't find the reason to want it, but whats in her dream, she wants it all.
She yearns for too much perfection in life that it is why she's hurting herself.
She runs away, every now and then.
When someone tries to be close, she would walk away because she's afraid.
Insecure, afraid of love. But yet all she wanted was love




Enough of the emo craps i've been going through recently,
All of my friends are also emo recently too.
We would spend alot of time all together,
Sitting down somewhere, spilling deeper conversations, cry if we can't take it and hug one another because we know that how great it is that we have all of us together.
I think its the emo-ness that brought us sitting all together till the stars shines brightly in the sky and chilly wind blows in the night.
And this is when i realised, how great my friends are to me and how much they are willing to be there for me thus, i'll always be there for them too.
I can't help it but say, i love my pengyous! they are totally loved.
They became great listening ears & advisors, which in return i don't mind listening to them and advising them too.
The emo freaks which can be damn cheebye sometimes hahahas = loved.


Updating about the wonderful saturday we had at FELFELbyyou's chalet!
(I totally don't understand why they keep using FELFELbyyou, BAOBAObyyou & VONVONbyyou. When the original is KELKELbyyou! haha)
It was a splendid time of BBQ-ing, mingling with friends, joking laughing, playing indian poker, watching forfeit and loving the time spend with friends.



Cheryl & Shah ^^



BBQ-ing, all my lovely friends.



Birthday girl,
FELFELbyyou & KELKELbyyou



KELKEL, Shah & Cheryl



The people who gets emo, and are freaks yet loved.



My beloved pengyou~



The best advisor you'd ever have, Davis (:



Ah笨 & Davis, the two tall pillars!



Darling yvonne. (:



:D




The indian poker game! awesome.


After playing till almost 1, we decided to head off.
Pengyou drove us to Katong's Hongkong cafe to have some food.
& drove us all back home after that.



Stupidben



Suppppper



Sitting nearby home talking to advisor till 4plus i think?
And his lighter was my only entertainment.

Just like a star


Its so far from you,
that very blurry starlight.
I cant give you enough light.
I always felt sorry because my eyes were clouded.

From now on,
I will forget you forever.
You can pretend not to know me forever.
For your happiness,
I have to leave you.
I will always shine for you.
I will call your name from afar, all alone.
All for the sake of my love for you,
please let me leave you quietly.

Even if you go very far,
please look up at the night sky once in a while.
Beautiful love like a star.
When you lost your way,
it will protect you from a distant.

Just like that,
I will watch over you forever.
I will live a life without you like a star.
To have a bright love,
please look for a person like the sun.
I will sparkle a little for you,
so that you can forget me and not notice me.
All is for the sake of my love for you,
please forget me who is far away from you.

I wish to protect you forever.
This is the best I can, like a star.
Even though I cannot be close to you,
I will cast a light to you from afar, endlessly.
Like a star, I will love you forever.

"Like a star - Solbi"

Date : Thursday, November 12
Time : 3:12 PM
Title : A heart that never learnt heartache

Touch me, not.
As my hair seems to grow longer than before, the heart never seems to grow and learn what is called "Heartache".
It still fall off edges without my consent and made those tears come again & again.
So many times, so many nights, still the heart never learns.
A heart that never learnt eventhough heartaches came & go.


Don't be too nice, don't be too good.
I'd hide, i'd sneak a peek. I'll close up, so touch me not.
I'm afraid of sweet tender touch, i'm afraid of too much care & concern.
Although i always yearn for someone who care, someone who wants, someone who need.
But when times get close, i'd close up. I'm afraid. No to it.
So touch me not.



Continue updating tonight,

Date : Sunday, November 8
Time : 3:59 AM
Title : I've a leaking tap of tears. )':

Felt a sense of regretfulness after what i said but i want my reputation.
Have the urge of taking back my words and saying what's actually deep inside but i didn't
Kept what's real deep inside, never gonna reveal it.
So what if its real, so what if its true.
Its a joke, to everyone else out there.
Maybe its just the nature of how things work, and how cruel reality and love is.
After saying whats meant to protect myself makes my heart aches alot now.
Shld've known it'll bring me heartache, shld've refused from the very beginning.
I've a leaking tap of tears,
turning my head too late as tears already start flowing off. And quickly walk off.
On my way back, the tears didn't stop. The toilet was the last resort. Its the only hideout where no one can see, no one knows anything about me.
Sitting on the wet cold floor, listening to "Almost lover"
My leaking tap, now my bloated eyes of deepness.




hate this fucked up feeling,
hate myself for being so shallow
hate my mind and heart.

Date : Tuesday, November 3
Time : 11:48 PM
Title : First take of a scene, never taken before in my life.

I'm such a joke i realised HAHAHA! *laughing at myself*
Sigh, its hard to explain what i'm feeling now.




Photobucket.com is being such a bitch, i cant upload pictures, and i completely hate blogger's picture uploading, so only 1 picture in this blog post. BLAME PHOTOBUCKET.
UT1 is coming my way tmr, time flies. LOVE IT
And randomly, i pray that my hair grow longer and thicker (HEALTHIER) too!
Then like nicholas say, HAIR BRA. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
My eyes sore every now and then, it gets tired nowadays.
Its time for my eye check up and new contacts i think.
Marketing tmr, dread to attend class actually, Walter is such a active facilitator that i don't like him cos i'm inactive on a 8:30am lesson -.-


Take me away, to somewhere faraway.
I want to believe and trust someone with no doubts of everything.
Is there a life like this? Is there someone i could do that with?
Or are all this just thoughts.
A dream is a wish your heart makes,
I dreamt about it alot, i dreamt about "that scene" ALOT.
What's my problem? idk.
Sleep time again, i dont want this scene to repeat again.

Date : Friday, October 30
Time : 11:56 AM
Title : When you know, you'll know?

ELEVEN:
You walk really slowly when you are with him/her.

TEN:
You don't feel Ok when he/she is far away.

NINE:
You smile when you hear his/her voice.

EIGHT:
When you look at him/her,you do not see other people around you.You see only him/her.

SIX:
He/She is everything you want to think.

FIVE
You realise that you smile every time you look at him/her.

FOUR:
You would do anything to see him/her.

THREE:
While you have been reading this, there was a person in your mind all the time.

TWO:
You've been so busy thinking of that person that you didn't notice that number SEVEN is missing.

ONE:
You are going to check above if that's true and now you are silently laughing to yourself.