Date : Thursday, November 12
Time : 3:12 PM
Title : A heart that never learnt heartache

Touch me, not.
As my hair seems to grow longer than before, the heart never seems to grow and learn what is called "Heartache".
It still fall off edges without my consent and made those tears come again & again.
So many times, so many nights, still the heart never learns.
A heart that never learnt eventhough heartaches came & go.


Don't be too nice, don't be too good.
I'd hide, i'd sneak a peek. I'll close up, so touch me not.
I'm afraid of sweet tender touch, i'm afraid of too much care & concern.
Although i always yearn for someone who care, someone who wants, someone who need.
But when times get close, i'd close up. I'm afraid. No to it.
So touch me not.



Continue updating tonight,

Date : Sunday, November 8
Time : 3:59 AM
Title : I've a leaking tap of tears. )':

Felt a sense of regretfulness after what i said but i want my reputation.
Have the urge of taking back my words and saying what's actually deep inside but i didn't
Kept what's real deep inside, never gonna reveal it.
So what if its real, so what if its true.
Its a joke, to everyone else out there.
Maybe its just the nature of how things work, and how cruel reality and love is.
After saying whats meant to protect myself makes my heart aches alot now.
Shld've known it'll bring me heartache, shld've refused from the very beginning.
I've a leaking tap of tears,
turning my head too late as tears already start flowing off. And quickly walk off.
On my way back, the tears didn't stop. The toilet was the last resort. Its the only hideout where no one can see, no one knows anything about me.
Sitting on the wet cold floor, listening to "Almost lover"
My leaking tap, now my bloated eyes of deepness.




hate this fucked up feeling,
hate myself for being so shallow
hate my mind and heart.

Date : Tuesday, November 3
Time : 11:48 PM
Title : First take of a scene, never taken before in my life.

I'm such a joke i realised HAHAHA! *laughing at myself*
Sigh, its hard to explain what i'm feeling now.




Photobucket.com is being such a bitch, i cant upload pictures, and i completely hate blogger's picture uploading, so only 1 picture in this blog post. BLAME PHOTOBUCKET.
UT1 is coming my way tmr, time flies. LOVE IT
And randomly, i pray that my hair grow longer and thicker (HEALTHIER) too!
Then like nicholas say, HAIR BRA. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
My eyes sore every now and then, it gets tired nowadays.
Its time for my eye check up and new contacts i think.
Marketing tmr, dread to attend class actually, Walter is such a active facilitator that i don't like him cos i'm inactive on a 8:30am lesson -.-


Take me away, to somewhere faraway.
I want to believe and trust someone with no doubts of everything.
Is there a life like this? Is there someone i could do that with?
Or are all this just thoughts.
A dream is a wish your heart makes,
I dreamt about it alot, i dreamt about "that scene" ALOT.
What's my problem? idk.
Sleep time again, i dont want this scene to repeat again.

Date : Friday, October 30
Time : 11:56 AM
Title : When you know, you'll know?

ELEVEN:
You walk really slowly when you are with him/her.

TEN:
You don't feel Ok when he/she is far away.

NINE:
You smile when you hear his/her voice.

EIGHT:
When you look at him/her,you do not see other people around you.You see only him/her.

SIX:
He/She is everything you want to think.

FIVE
You realise that you smile every time you look at him/her.

FOUR:
You would do anything to see him/her.

THREE:
While you have been reading this, there was a person in your mind all the time.

TWO:
You've been so busy thinking of that person that you didn't notice that number SEVEN is missing.

ONE:
You are going to check above if that's true and now you are silently laughing to yourself.

Date : Thursday, October 29
Time : 11:49 PM
Title : Why can't love just be love? ):

I'm such a big cry baby! >.<
After watching Korean variety show "We got married" Hyunjoong and Hwangbo's
I cried like a few weeks ago.
Just finish watching Alex and Shinae's, i cried again! Tears came knocking on my door. ):
How sad it was lor. It seems like they have already developed that relationship between them.
Those chemistry that can't be scripted. Holding each other's hands not wanting to let go, Stolen kisses. All this bits and pieces of small gestures are all so sweet.
And they are off! They have to divorce in the show.
How sad can that be? ):




Im going crazy just by the thought of those moments they share!
Stolen moments! ): Alex was such a romantic-er! Is there one like him near me? I want! >.<








Updates on sch, its TGIF tmr!
Another week just flew by, i'm so glad! (:
UT1 is coming my way very soon, urgh so irritating!
On CRM (Tuesday), had alot of fun with my girls taking pictures with my new baby.
Pictures turn out really great!
Check it out!




Individual photoshoot proudly shooted by me!
All of them have two shots! i took the best one among it!




Pretty sleek uh! hahas
I'm not a professional photographer, but i've got the style to be one!
MUAHAHAHAHA
I'm awesome!




i wish to love, but i haven't met you yet. i'll be waiting for you. i dont' even know who are you ):

Date : Sunday, October 25
Time : 10:51 PM
Title : Yours truly, Flowerpot wannabe.

Its already sunday night ):
My weekend is out again. Really hate the feeling man.
I wished my saturday night would be longer, so i can stay out longer! =D
Nothing special this week, but i see smiles that i yearn to see so i'm contented!
So much contentment! & warmth in my heart! *smile foolishly*
I hoped for more, but things ain't what i thought it would be. A little disappointment here and there, but yeah. Who am i to judge, do i even have the criteria and standard to judge what i want to happen? hmmm i'm not sure about that though.
Weekend out, sch's week 4 life in again. URGH!


Anyways, today i had late lunch with Family @ The hilltop at Jurong area.
Teppanyaki was great! Scenery wasn't that bad! But service kinda sucked.
That teppanyaki chef has no expression at all, and the way he cook seriously!
The sauces, oil and stuff he used were all over the place. At the place where i'm eating.
But the food taste not bad uh.
Lunch was meant to celebrate daddy's belated birthday on 23rd Oct.






Daddy turned 47 this year!
I was ransacking the old albums & guess what i found!

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& while ransacking, i found lots of funny pictures i've known nothing about!
And there's alot about me.
Specially picked by me:




Do i want it or not?
I know my heart wants it, but my body ain't moving towards it.
I know my heart wants to know, but my mind keeps me further away.
I know what happens made me smile when i sleep, but i try my best not to show.
I know you ain't true all this are a lie, mayb that's why i'm afraid.
Its even more scarier when you're even nicer,
Stroke my hair, pinch my cheek, hold my hand, touch my chin.
All this are fake right, i thought so too.
It was all for entertainment purpose and a joke?

Date : Friday, October 23
Time : 10:17 PM
Title : My new baby called Canon Ixus 200 IS !

I'd like to introduce my new baby to you all (:
Its the Canon Ixus 200 IS! =D a really pretty baby!
I bought the brownish (or is it gold) one! Haven't tried it out yet actually!
A 8gb memory was given, and the camera looks sleek & usual my fav word "PERFECT"
12.1 Megapixels, 24mm wide screen and semi-touch screen! ^^
How awesome is that! Its small & handy! (:
I can't wait to try out my new baby! :D
Thanks to my aunt ((:






Finally its TGI-Friday! ^^ 3 weeks into semester 2 of my year 2 life in poly,
Half of Poly life is already over! Gosh, how quick right.
Sch has been getting more & more tiring nowadays!
The modules turned out dry, either very theory based or it would contain massive tons of calculation which i feel like killing myself just by looking at those numbers and words.
I'm so tired! I don't have a energy charger right now ):
I need my energy charger! >.< Where are you, mr energy charger!


Sleepy eyes, sleepy face, aching body & blocked nose.
got that feeling that i'm falling sick.. BETTER NOT!!!






Getting used to the weirdness in life, the kind of people changing their personality at light speed. Getting used to knowing that not everyone is worth keeping as a friend, knowing that true friends are not always true in reality.
Getting used to knowing love don't always work out, knowing that love is something hard to get and hard to understand.
Sometimes its how ugly the truth is,
when you cry, no one would bother sometimes getting used to cry alone.
(: life would get better!
I seriously need a getaway to chill & forget about my life for a while!
& one more thing,
Strawberry pocky is back to my addiction & winter melon tea! ^^ LOVED.